Watch the latest episode of My Sporting Mind, as athlete Morgan Lake reflects on a frustrating year, focusing on what she can control, and a big career decision.
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Highlights from episode five
Morgan Lake is the fifth guest in the second series of My Sporting Mind.
The British athlete talks Tokyo 2020+1, high jump versus heptathlon, dealing with disappointment, and much more.
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On coping with the pandemic last year...
"It's been hard. Last year, it was all so novel. It got to the point where you could see the pandemic was getting worse and worse throughout the world. For me, and a lot of athletes, we were just like 'the Olympics has to be cancelled - there's no way it can happen'.
"We've trained so hard for four years but at the end of the day, public health is way more important. We'd rather do our part in keeping everyone healthy and safe.
"Once we found out we were going to be in lockdown, our training was in our back garden. We had no access to the track, no access to any facilities. This is just not what the Olympics is about. It didn't make any sense (to go ahead)."
On recently cancelled events...
"I was overcome with sadness. I was like, 'I've prepared so well for these competitions'. For them to be cancelled was really hard, especially seeing a lot of other sports go ahead as planned.
"Obviously I understand that health and wellbeing and safety is the most important thing, but it was like they hadn't though of a plan B. In terms of training, it's hard - I'd peaked to compete on Sunday. My body was ready to compete.
"There are some competitions in Europe which I could go to, but the reason I'd chosen to do a UK season was to eliminate that risk.
"I feel sorry for my coach, as well. He doesn't know when to push us. That's a hard thing as well, physically but also mentally. I had so mentally prepared for this competition. For that to just be taken away, it was really hard."
On 'the athlete brain' and controlling what you can control...
"Having two mindsets has been really important. When I was younger I was really hard on myself, but I've definitely got bette as the years have gone by.
"The most important thing has been 'control the controlables' - that's been a really big thing this year. Reacting to things that I can control has been important.
"It's being able to have control over your life; looking at the bigger picture and control what I can."
On competitions that go wrong...
"Doha was a weird one. Looking back at it, I'd had quite a turbulent career. I wish I hadn't gone to that competition. I put way too much pressure to perform, where in hindsight I was definitely not in form or in shape.
"Normally, when competitions don't go to plan, it is hard - you put so much effort into them. Looking back at all the ones that haven't gone to plan, the majority of them, I can probably look back and think 'I probably wasn't best prepared for that competition'. In the moment you think (they all) will go well. Unfortunately, it doesn't work that way.
"Looking back at Rio, I was just so happy to be there. I didn't put any pressure on myself. Whereas with Doha, I put so much pressure on myself to perform."
On high jump v heptathlon
"I'm still a little bit undecided. I go through phases. I definitely want to do more than just high jump. Going from a multi-event background to one event was hard, and it still is, because I just love everything in the sport. I feel like I haven't fulfilled my potential in other events as well.
"I'm definitely going to stick with high jump and hopefully a few more events with that in the coming years."